WELL....I JUST HAD A DREAM WHERE YOU CAME TO VISIT. IT WAS A SHORT VISIT AND A SHORT DREAM WITH YOU IN IT. I CAN SAY THAT I DIDN'T LIKE THIS ONE AT ALL!

ME,YOUR DADDY AND SEAN WERE AT BEST JEWELERS SHOPPING AND YOU POPPED IN TO ASK WHY YOU WEREN'T GETTING ANY OF YOUR MAIL. YOU SAID THAT SO & SO WAS GETTING THEIR MAIL AND I TOLD YOU THAT THEY HAD BEEN THERE A WHILE AND PROBABLY TURNED IN A FORWARD. THAT YOU WOULD NEED TO DO THE SAME AND AS SOON AS I SAID THAT ~ YOU WERE GONE. 

I'M IN TEARS, BECAUSE WITH THAT ~ TURNING IN A FORWARD (A CHANGE OF ADDRESS CARD) MEANS IT'S A PERMANENT MOVE. OF COURSE, I WOKE UP CRYING.

LOVE YOU MY JARRETT~ALWAYS, MAMA

Jarrett,

I woke the other morning in tears.  It was tears of total loss.  I woke feeling something was missing and I know it was you.  I dreamt about you that night.  It wasn't a memory, either.  I know sometimes we say our dreams are wishes our heart makes.  It's definitely true.  I just wish I had you around again... to talk to, to laugh with, and just to smile with.  I miss your smile and I saw a lot of it during that dream.  Oddly enough, I knew I was dreaming when I was in it.  I knew you weren't really there and I kept asking you "why can't I see you more?"  I don't know much about dreams, their interpretations, and if dreaming of loved ones lost is really a way for us to connect to you until we're gone, too, but I do hope so.  I do hope it was real and a way for us to just talk.  I don't know if it takes a lot of "energy" for you or I need to be in the right "state of mind", but I want to see you more there... it was a great dream!!  That's why I woke crying.  You said "wake up" and I did... I did so crying because I didn't want to leave and knew it before I woke.  Nothing woke me that morning.  It was a Saturday.  I don't want to use your site asa  journal of memories/dreams or a way to "talk" to you, but I guess I am.  I miss you, Jarrett, with all of my being.  I see a fire truck and cry.  I see an old photo or anything to do with LFO and I cry.  I think of high school and I cry.  Time does help because it's not all the time, but I do.  It's "easier" than it was 4 years and 9 months ago, but it's still difficult when I remember the best person I ever met.  I still talk about you to people, but it does hurt to do so.  I love you and you should definitely make the visit to your family... I'm sure your mother could use a smile, too!  Love you ALWAYS!

     IT'S NOW BEEN 4YRS. 7 MO'S. TO THE DAY SINCE YOU RAN YOUR LAST CALL. I WORRY THAT I'LL FORGET HOW YOU LOOK...YOUR SMILE, YOUR FEATURES, YOUR HEIGHT EVEN YOUR WEIGHT. I WORRY THAT IF I GAIN OR LOSE WEIGHT, YOU WON'T RECOGNIZE ME WHEN IT'S MY TIME TO ''GO''. I WORRY THAT I WASN'T A GOOD ENOUGH MOTHER. I WORRY THAT I WAS TOO STRICT ON YOU (AND YOUR BROTHER)...THOUGH, HE HAS TOLD US THAT IF HE'S EVEN JUST HALF THE PARENT THAT WE WERE ~ HE'LL BE HAPPY. IT'S THE MENTAL THOUGHTS THAT GO ON DAY AFTER DAY AFTER DAY THAT GET TO ME. MENTALLY ~ I FELL LIKE I'M A MESS. PHYSICALLY...I KNOW I'M A MESS.
     IT'S BEEN 5YRS. SINCE YOUR BFF ANGIE GOT MARRIED. IT WAS 5 YRS. AGO THAT WAS YOUR LAST EVERYTHING YEAR AND WE DIDN'T KNOW IT. YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY WITH US AS A FAMILY. TO WHICH I ALMOST DIDN'T BAKE YOU YOUR BIRTHDAY CAKE ~ THINKING THAT YOU WOULD THINK THAT YOU WERE TOO OLD TO HAVE YOUR MOTHER BAKE YOU A BIRTHDAY CAKE...I WENT AHEAD AND I'M GLAD I DID!
     IT WAS YOUR LAST VACATION WITH YOUR BFF LANCE. GOING DOWN TO FLORIDA TO STAY WITH YOUR UNCLE RICKY ~ HELPING YOU TWO SAVE SOME MONEY. YOU AND LANCE STOPPING ON THE WAY TO VISIT AS MANY FIRE STATIONS THAT YOU COULD. THAT WAS YOU...ALL ABOUT FIRE FIGHTING.
     HOW I WISH YOU WERE HERE! STILL DOING WHAT YOU LOVED. I JUST WORRY....AS A MOTHER ALWAYS DOES!
     MISS YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY!  LOVE YOU MY JARRETT ~ ALWAYS, MAMA

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CLICK ON THE ADDRESS ABOVE AND YOU'LL SEE THE NEWS VIDEO OF THE JARRETT LITTLE MEMORIAL MOTORCYCLE RIDE OF 2013 TO BENEFIT THE GEORGIA FALLEN FIREFIGHTERS FOUNDATION

TOTAL RAISED WAS $1600.00 ~ THIS WAS A LAST MINUTE / PUT TOGETHER RIDE. THE GROUP THAT HAD SPONSORED IT FOR THE PAST 3 YRS. BLAMED US FOR THEM NOT DOING IT THIS YEAR.  BIKERS WHO HAD BEEN RIDING IN IT FOR THE PAST 3 YRS. WERE CALLING AND ASKING IF IT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN AGAIN THIS YEAR AND THE PRESIDENT OF THAT GROUP WOULDN'T ANSWER ANY CALLS OR JUST WOULDN'T RETURN ANY OF 'EM. WHEN THE ORIGINAL PRESIDENT WHO GOT THE RIDE STARTED IN 2009 FOUND OUT, HE HAD ALREADY LEFT THAT GROUP AND JOINED ANOTHER ONE...AND HE CONTACTED THE FIRST GROUP AND THEY SAID THAT THEY DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO GET IN TOUCH WITH US AND THAT I HAD GOTTEN MAD AT 'EM LAST YEAR WHEN I WANTED TO CHANGE THE RECEIPANT OF THE MONEY THAT WOULD BE RAISED AND THEY SAID THAT I COULDN'T CHANGE WHO GETS THE MONEY. 

WHEN WE WERE APPROACHED WITH THE IDEA OF HAVING AN ANNUAL MOTORCYCLE RIDE TO BENEFIT ''WHOEVER''....I WAS TOLD THAT WE COULD CHANGE THE RECEIPANT AT ANY TIME AND THAT'S WHAT I HAD REQUESTED. THE ''NEW'' PRESIDENT OF THE ORIGINAL GROUP SAID HE HAD SPOKEN WITH ''EVERYONE'' AND THEY AGREED THAT WE COULDN'T MAKE THE CHANGE.  SO, I DID GET MAD. THEY WERE USING OUR JARRETT'S NAME AND OUR NAME AND WE HAD FOUND OUT SEVERAL OTHER THINGS ABOUT THE GROUP THAT WE DIDN'T AGREE WITH AND SO...WE JUST LET IT GO. 

WE HONESTLY FORGOT ALL ABOUT IT WHEN KENNY GOT A PHONE CALL THIS YEAR FROM THE ORIGINAL PRESIDENT OF THE FIRST GROUP AND TOLD US OF THE SITUATION. HE SAID THAT HE WOULD DO WHAT HE COULD TO GET THE RIDE GOING AND HE DID. HE DIDN'T HAVE A PROBLEM WITH US CHANGING WHO THE RECIEPANT WAS GOING TO BE. SO, FOR THE SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME THAT HE PUT THIS RIDE TOGETHER, I THINK $1600.00 DOLLARS IS A GOOD AMOUNT TO BE DONATED TO THE GEORGIA FALLEN FIREFIGHTERS FOUNDATION. 

WAY TO GO ROUGHNECKS OF HAMILTON COUNTY ~ CHATTANOOGA, TENNESEE.

BECKY AND KENNY LITTLE ~ PARENTS OF FFF JARRETT LEE LITTLE  7/24/84 ~ 12/31/08

http://youtu.be/SADLGJroeug



I really hope this shows up, but this is the video I took at the ride today as all of the motorcycles were leaving.

 It's just not the same and it still feels like yesterday. I still can't believe it's been over 4 years now! It just doesn't seem possible! Time has flown by and we all wish enough were here to enjoy life and all the things you loved doing. 
Watch over your family!
Love always,
Nicki 

IT'S NOW BEEN 4YRS. 2MO'S 1 WEEK AND 5 DAYS SINCE YOU RAN YOUR LAST CALL. WE JUST GOT BACK FROM BEING OVER AT YOUR GRANNY'S HOUSE. COOKED, CLEANED AND PUT GROCERIES AWAY FOR HER. WHILE DOING THAT ~ YOUR DADDY WAS TELLING A STORY OF WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE AND IT LEAD INTO THE TELLING OF ANOTHER ONE AS WELL.

THE FIRST ONE WAS:  WHEN WE WERE IN THE PARKING LOT OF BI-LO, AFTER HAVING BOUGHT OUR GROCERIES...YOU WERE LITTLE AND HAD GOTTEN OUT OF YOUR CAR SEAT, CLIMBED OVER THE SEAT TO GET INTO THE FRONT AND GRABBED A HOLD OF THE STEERING WHEEL AND PULLED DOWN ON THE GEAR SHIFT...AND THE CAR STARTED ROLLING.  WE WERE BEHIND THE CAR, PUTTING THE GROCERIES IN THE TRUNK AND YOUR DADDY HAD TO RUN AND JUMP IN (LUCKY FOR HIM THAT HE LEFT THE DOOR OPEN) AND STEPPED ON THE BRAKE TO STOP THE CAR.  IT'S FUNNY NOW ~ WASN'T SO FUNNY THEN!

THE SECOND WAS:  I WAS DRIVING THE TRUCK AND WE WERE ON OUR WAY TO THE GOLF COURSE AND WE WERE TALKING AND WHEN I ROUNDED THE CURVE, THE PASSENGER SIDE DOOR OPENED UP AND YOU FELL OUTWARD....STILL HANGING ON TO THE DOOR ~ AND IT BROUGHT BACK MEMORIES OF WHEN I FELL OUT OUR CAR DOOR WHEN I WAS LITTLE!  WHAT ARE THE CHANCES OF THAT HAPPENING IN THE SAME FAMILY????  LIKE MOTHER ~ LIKE SON! 

WE HAD A GOOD LAUGH WHILE HE WAS TELLING 'EM BOTH.  JUST WISH YOU WERE HERE! 

MISS YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY.  LOVE YOU MY JARRETT~ALWAYS, MAMA

IT'S NOW BEEN 4YRS.,2 MO'S. SINCE YOU RAN YOUR LAST CALL. THOUGHT OF SEVERAL DIFFERENT THINGS TODAY WHILE OUT ON MY ROUTE. ONE OF THOSE THOUGHTS WAS WHEN SOMEONE ATTEMPTED TO BREAK INTO THE HOUSE. MY FIRST THOUGHT WAS THAT SOMEONE FROM THE NEIGHBORHOOD NEEDED HELP AND THEY NEW THAT YOU AND YOUR BROTHER WERE FIREFIGHTERS AND KNEW WHAT TO DO IN AN EMERGENCY. BUT, THAT WASN'T THE CASE. THE GUY WAS HIGH ON DRUGS AND YOUR DADDY ENDED UP FIGHTING WITH HIM ON THE BACK DECK....ALL THE WHILE Y'ALL WERE BLOCKING ME FROM GOING OUT TO HELP HIM. THEN, ALL OF A SUDDEN YOU AND YOUR BROTHER WERE OUT THERE HELPING YOUR DADDY....GIVING HIM A BREAK! YOU TOLD ME TO GET YOUR PHONE AND CALL 911. I GOT YOUR PHONE ALRIGHT...BUT, COULDN'T FIND 911 ON IT. (NOW...BEFORE ANYONE STARTS LAUGHING...WHEN YOU BUY A CELL PHONE AND HAVE YOUR NUMBER PUT IN...IT'S NOT FROM YOUR AREA AND WHEN YOU CALL THE NUMBERS: 9-1-1...YOU DON'T GET ''YOUR LOCAL'' 911 CENTER).  SO, I HAD TO HAND YOU THE PHONE AND YOU GOT IT PULLED UP, HANDED THE PHONE BACK TO ME AND WHEN I TALKED TO THE DISPATCHER...I WAS TELLING HER WHAT WAS HAPPENING AND Y'ALL WERE PUTTING HANDCUFFS ON HIM BY THAT TIME AND WHEN I TOLD HER ~ SHE ASKED: ARE THEY POLICEMEN?  I SAID:  NO!!!  THEY'RE FIREMEN!!  AS IF SHE WAS SUPPOSE TO KNOW!! 

AFTER IT WAS ALL SAID AND DONE......ALL 4 OF US WERE JUST SITTING IN THE LIVING ROOM AND TALKING ABOUT IT AND THEN YOUR BROTHER SPOKE UP AND SAID:  THAT'S THE FIRST TIME I'VE BEAT ANYONE UP IN MY UNDERWEAR!!!  WE ALL JUST LAUGHED!!!  OF ALL THE THINGS TO SAY ~ BUT, WE HAD A GOOD LAUGH. 

MISS THOSE TIMES / DAYS.  IT JUST DOESN'T SEEM RIGHT OR FAIR.  IT'S A CONSTANT THOUGHT ~ EVERY FREAKING DAY.  I SWEAR I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL I CAN RETIRE.  NOT THAT THAT WILL HELP WITH THE MANY THOUGHTS THAT RUN THROUGH MY HEAD, BUT AT LEAST I WON'T BE MAKING SOOOO  MANY MISTAKES BECAUSE I CAN'T CONCENTRATE ON MY WORK.

A FIRE TRUCK PASSED ME ON MY WAY HOME TODAY AS WELL....WITH LIGHTS AND SIRENS. ALL I COULD DO WAS THINK THAT IF YOU WERE HERE....THAT'S WHAT YOU'D BE DOING..(WHILE CRYING)~YOU'RE MISSING IT. YOU LOVED WHAT YOU WERE DOING AND DONE IT FOR THAT REASON. IT WASN'T FOR THE MONEY!! 

I MISS YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY!  LOVE YOU MY JARRETT~ALWAYS, MAMA

2/11/2013...IT'S NOW BEEN 4YRS.1MO.,AND 2 DAYS SHY OF 2 WEEKS SINCE YOU RAN YOUR LAST CALL. IT IS OUR 29TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TODAY AND YOU ARE THE REASON FOR THAT AND YOU AREN'T HERE. IT JUST DOESN'T FEEL THE SAME AND IT NEVER WILL. IT'S STILL JUST SO HARD TO BELIEVE THAT IT'S BEEN THIS LONG SINCE WE'VE SEEN YOU. YOU HAVE NO IDEA.

WE GO ON BECAUSE WE HAVE TO. IT'S EXPECTED OF US. IF PEOPLE ONLY ''KNEW''.............MISS YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY!

LOVE YOU MY JARRETT~ALWAYS, MAMA

1/13/13...IT'S NOW BEEN 4YRS.,1WEEK AND 6 DAYS SINCE YOU RAN YOUR LAST CALL AND I STILL DON'T SLEEP ALL NIGHT. HAD A DREAM...WE HAD THE BOYS (TYLER AND GAGE), SPENT THE WHOLE DAY WITH 'EM~DOING THINGS THAT BOYS LIKE TO DO. WHEN WE GOT HOME, TYLER WENT TO HIS ROOM AND I WAS GOING TO SHOW GAGE HOW TO BAKE A CAKE AND WE WERE IN THE KITCHEN AND HE ASKED: WHERE'S JARRETT?

WITH THAT....THE TEARS STARTED AND I HAD TO TELL HIM THAT YOU WERE IN HEAVEN AND WE ONLY HAVE PICTURES AROUND HERE TO SHOW HIM OF YOU.

THE THING IS...HE WAS ONLY 13 DAYS OLD WHEN YOU RAN YOUR LAST CALL. YOU GOT TO MEET HIM AND OFFERED TO BABYSIT ANYTIME FOR NICKI. THAT'S JUST WHO YOU WERE AND WITH THAT ~ SHE HAS TALKED OF YOU AND HAVE HAD YOUR PICTURES AROUND SO HE WOULD GET TO KNOW YOU.

I DON'T KNOW HOW I DO IT.......KEEP GOING...BUT I'M TIRED. MISS YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY!

miss you my friend! and think about you often. 

Jarrett,

I want to apologize to you and your family. I don't visit your site enough!! Please don't think that means I don't think of you or I'm forgetting. I think of you everyday! I see your face... the blue eyes and that smile everyday at work. The picture of you and Tyler at Ang's wedding is on my desk.

We miss you terribly and it's going to be difficult and hard this year not being at your billboard. Please be with your parents and family. Tonight is so hard for them... not that any day/night is easy! The tears still fall even 4 years later. It is so hard to believe it has really been that long. 

I still remember those last few times I saw you. Those days aren't easy either. So bittersweet, such good memories, but no new ones.

Love always and never forgotten!! 
XOXOXO ♥

12/31/2012...TONIGHT WILL MARK 4YRS. SINCE YOU RAN YOUR LAST CALL. IT'S STILL HARD TO BELIEVE THAT IT'S BEEN THAT LONG SINCE WE'VE SEEN YOU~ALIVE. SINCE WE WERE AT YOUR NEW STATION, HELPING WITH COOKING AND YOUR DADDY HELPING WITH LOWERING THE CABINETS SO THAT ITEMS COULD BE PLACED IN 'EM AND BE REACHED....SO HARD TO BELIEVE.

WE'VE DECIDED NOT TO GO TO YOUR BILLBOARD ~ CRASH SITE ~ TONIGHT. IT'S DUE TO RAIN AND WE DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO BE OUT THERE IN THE RAIN AND IT COLD AS WELL. WE KNOW THAT PEOPLE REMEMBER....IT'S JUST STILL HARD TO BELIEVE THAT YOU'RE NOT HERE AND YOU'VE RAN YOUR LAST CALL. THAT YOU'RE NOT DOING WHAT YOU LOVED TO DO....

I'M AFRAID THAT I'M GOING TO FORGET WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE. YOU'RE FEATURES...YOUR BLUE EYES, YOUR SMILE, YOUR LAUGH, THE SOUND OF YOUR VOICE. YOU'RE ON MY MIND 24/7...AND WHEN I'M ASLEEP ~ I'M WANTING TO HAVE A VISIT FROM YOU.

I STILL CRY...EVEN AFTER 4YRS. I'M SURE PEOPLE THINK THAT WE SHOULD BE OVER IT BY NOW, BUT, THAT IS SOMETHING THAT'S JUST GOING TO KEEP HAPPENING....THE CRYING. IT'S JUST A MOTHER THING.

YOUR DADDY STILL HELPS WITH TAKING WATER TO THE FIREFIGHTERS WHEN THERE'S A CALL DURING THE NIGHT. WALKER CO. FIREFIGHTERS WOULD LIKE FOR HIM TO BRING THEM SOME WATER WHEN THEY HAVE A CALL...AND HE DOES ON OCCASION~NOT OFTEN ENOUGH THOUGH.

YOU'RE MISSING OUT ON SO MUCH DOWN HERE. YOU'VE GOT 2 BEAUTIFUL NIECES. I'M SURE YOU'D BE SPOILING 'EM ROTTEN. WE'VE LEARNED A THING OR TWO ABOUT HAVING ''GIRLS'' IN THE FAMILY. IT'S MUCH DIFFERENT THAN YOU TWO BOYS. I JUST WISH YOU WERE HERE TO SEE JUST HOW YOU'D BE HELPING /SPOILING / SPENDING TIME WITH 'EM. THAT'S ONE OF THE THINGS THAT HURT...NOT GETTING TO SEE YOU WITH YOUR BROTHER AND HIS FAMILY. GOING OVER THERE AND SPENDING TIME WITH 'EM. HE'S ALONE ~ SO TO SPEAK. HE DOESN'T HAVE HIS "BROTHER"....WHILE OTHERS HAVE THEIR SIBLINGS~HE DOESN'T. HE DOESN'T GET TO SHARE THINGS WITH YOU...

I KNOW THAT I MAY NOT HAVE BEEN THE BEST OF MOTHERS, BUT YOU KNEW THAT I WASN'T GOING TO RAISE HOODLUMS. I MAY HAVE BEEN STRICK ON YOU TWO, BUT, I DO KNOW THAT A LOT OF PEOPLE WISH THEIR KIDS HAD TURNED OUT LIKE YOU TWO. I'M SURE THAT I DIDN'T SAY IT ENOUGH ~ BUT, I'M PROUD OF YOU AND YOUR BROTHER.

YOU GOT TO LIVE OUT YOUR DREAMS OF DOING AND BEING WHAT YOU LOVED ~ YOU GOT TO BE A FIREFIGHTER.

I LOVE AND MISS YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY!

LOVE YOU MY JARRETT~ALWAYS, MAMA

 I've made my list,
I've checked it twice
I'm stoppin' by to let you know
I've cried ~
I've been broken-hearted...
for some time now~
I love and miss you dearly ~
I can't say it enough...
You've been gone for such a
long time now ~
I'm afraid I'll forget the look
of your face
The way you use to smile
The way you use to laugh
The way you use to say
MAMA
even the twinkle in your eyes
I'm wishing you were here
I'm missing you each year
I love and miss you oh so much
Is there anyone listening up there?

Love you my Jarrett~Always, MAMA

    
                                                                   ~I AM~


WITH TEARS ROLLING DOWN MY FACE I THINK AND WONDER ABOUT ALL THE MOTHERS (AND FATHERS) WHO HAVE LOST A CHILD AND IT BREAKS MY HEART TO KNOW AND SEE SO MANY BECAUSE NOW~I AM ONE OF THEM.

I SEE JUST HOW MANY YEARS THAT HAVE PASSED FOR OTHER PARENTS AND I CAN'T IMAGINE ME BEING IN THEIR SHOES. ALL-THE-WHILE~I AM.

I STILL CAN'T SEE MYSELF IN THE FUTURE YEARS AS A PARENT WHO HAS LOST A CHILD~YET KNOWING DEEP DOWN WITH EVERY DAY THAT PASSES~I AM.

THE THOUGHTS THAT RUN THROUGH MY MIND ON A DAILY BASIS MAKES ME WONDER JUST HOW I MADE IT THROUGH THE DAY.

WE ALL KEEP GOING FOR MANY DIFFERENT REASONS AND YET WONDER HOW WE DO IT.

ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT SOMEWHERE OUT THERE SOMEONE IS THINKING OF YOUR LOVED ONE~I AM.


(WRITTEN 6/26/2011)