BECKY~J-MAMA | JARRETT'S 2012 BIRTHDAY GRAPHICS | August 1, 2012 |
BECKY~J-MAMA | THANK YOU GRAPHIC FROM DEW DROP DESIGNS~8/1/2012 | August 1, 2012 |
BECKY~J-MAMA | SEAN'S 2012 BIRTHDAY GRAPHIC | July 7, 2012 |
BECKY~J-MAMA | ~MY FIRST SIGGY~ | April 25, 2012 |
BECKY~J-MAMA | WELCOMING YOUR GODDAUGHTER ~ | April 25, 2012 |
BECKY~J-MAMA | JARRETT'S 2012 EASTER GRAPHIC | April 9, 2012 |
BECKY~J-MAMA | WORKING ON MAKING BANNERS FOR YOU | March 3, 2012 |
BECKY~J-MAMA | YOUR BFF LANCES' WEDDING | February 11, 2012 |
BECKY~J-MAMA | MY SON | January 23, 2012 |
BECKY~J-MAMA | JARRETT'S 3RD YR. ANGELVERSARY GRAPHIC & THANK YOU | January 1, 2012 |
BECKY~J-MAMA | MY SON...3 YEARS AND COUNTING | December 31, 2011 |
12/29/2011...IT'S GOING ON 3 YEARS SINCE YOU RAN YOUR LAST CALL. WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE? MENTALLY~FOR US, IT STILL FEELS LIKE DECEMBER 31ST,2008...THE DAY THAT TIME STOOD STILL.
WE CONTINUE TO GO ABOUT OUR DAILY LIVES. I STILL WORK AND LOOK FORWARD TO RETIRING...IF THE ECONOMY DOESN'T DO MY JOB IN FIRST.
YOUR TYLER AND HIS FAMILY HAVE MOVED. THEY'VE GOTTEN A HOUSE. HE'S GETTING TALL. HE LIKES RECEIVING ONE OF HIS CHRISTMAS GIFTS EARLY. I GIVE HIM A SPECIAL ORNAMENT IN MEMORY OF YOU.
AS YOU KNOW, YOUR BFF ANGIE IS EXPECTING AND IT'S A GIRL. SHE'LL HAVE YOUR MIDDLE NAME WORKED INTO HER NAME, SO SHE CAN CARRY SOME PART OF YOU AND YOUR MEMORY ON.
I SOMETIMES STILL CAN'T GET IT IN MY HEAD THAT YOU'RE NOT HERE. I KNOW THAT WE'VE GOT TO GET IN YOUR ROOM AND DO SOMETHING...BUT, I JUST DON'T HAVE IT IN ME RIGHT NOW. WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT, I CAN HONESTLY FEEL MY INSIDES SHAKE. KNOWING THAT WE'VE GOT TO, YET, I CAN'T MAKE MYSELF MOVE TO DO IT. I CAN GO IN YOUR ROOM AND MOVE THINGS AROUND, TOUCH YOUR CLOTHES, YOUR THINGS AND I'M OK. BUT, TO EVEN THINK ABOUT PUTTING 'EM AWAY~FOR GOOD...I JUST CAN'T SEE IT HAPPENING RIGHT NOW.
I DID CHANGE SOMETHING IN THE HOUSE AND WHEN I STARTED ON IT...I CRIED. JUST THINKING THAT IT'S THE FIRST THING INSIDE THE HOUSE THAT I'VE CHANGED SINCE YOU RAN YOUR LAST CALL. ONLY ANOTHER MOTHER WHO HAS LOST THEIR CHILD WOULD UNDERSTAND THAT.
IT'S A MENTAL CHALLENGE AND IT'S GOING TO BE A LONG HAUL...SINCE YOU CAN'T RUN AWAY FROM YOUR MEMORIES.
MEMORIES...I THINK BACK TO THE DAY OF WHAT ENDED UP BEING YOUR LAST CALL. SO MANY THINGS RUN THROUGH MY MIND AND THAT DAY IS BY FAR THE MOST. YOU WERE HAPPY, EVEN THOUGH YOU WERE HAVING TO CLEAN THE STATION UP IN ORDER TO WORK/EAT/LIVE AND SLEEP THERE, YOU WERE STILL HAPPY TO BE CLOSER TO HOME, BE CLOSER TO YOUR GRANDPARENTS HOUSES AND WOULD EVEN RUN A CALL THAT WAY SHOULD SOMETHING HAPPEN.
I REMEMBER CALLING MY MOM (GRANNY) AND TELLING HER THAT YOU WOULD BE STATIONED THERE AND WOULD BE THE ONE TO RESPOND IF YOU WERE WORKING SHOULD SHE HAVE TO MAKE A 911 CALL. SHE WAS HAPPY TO KNOW THAT. TO KNOW THAT SOMEONE WOULD KNOW HOW TO GET TO HER HOUSE.
I ALSO REMEMBER HAVING TO MAKE THE CALL TO HER ON THAT NIGHT THAT YOU RAN YOUR LAST CALL. YOU COULD SAY THAT I WAS LOST! IT'S NOT SUPPOSE TO BE THAT WAY AND I WASN'T SUPPOSE TO BE MAKING THAT CALL. EVEN THOUGH WE HAD TALKED ABOUT THE ''WHAT IF SOMETHING HAPPENS''. NOTHING WENT THE WAY THAT YOU AND YOUR BROTHER EXPLAINED THAT THINGS WOULD GO.
I OFTEN THINK OF WHAT ALL YOU WOULD BE DOING NOW. HOW MANY JOBS YOU'D BE WORKING. KNOWING THAT YOU'D STILL BE WITH THE FIRE DEPT. AND WORKING PART TIME W/THE P.O.
WONDERING IF YOU'D HAVE YOUR LITTLE NIECE SPOILED ROTTEN. IF YOU'D BE TEACHING HER ''FIRE SAFETY'' EVEN AT HER YOUNG AGE...OF 2. (NEVER CAN START TOO EARLY-UH)?
BE SURE TO WATCH OVER YOUR BROTHER AND MAKE SURE THAT HE GETS HOME SAFELY TO HIS GIRLS.
SURE WISH YOU WERE HERE!
MISS YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY!
LOVE YOU MY JARRETT ALWAYS, MAMA